Study all the magic.
I listen to you chant and breathe my name
I think of Job, who said
I repent in dust and ashes
I make an offering
spill water in the dessert
kneel in the mud
I take the distance and waiting given to me
and kiss them back into your mouth
Our black spells, I read them again and again
upside-down, your hands holding light and darkness
I read them, every word
In the dark of dawn my heart burns like a star
I turn three times and catch the wind in my hair,
kill a white foal, drink honey
draw blood with wolf's teeth.
How can I conjure us to life?
I live alone with my back to the world,
I am learning to dance alone,
I long for a scrap of your clothes,
in my hand, stuffed in my mouth,
an unravelling talisman.
proof
I call and call.
What if I get lost out here
waiting for you
what if I cannot find my way back in?
but I will try anyway
I will wait for you
I will try anything:
drink your spit,
wear your skin,
carry your teeth in a bag
Where is your body?
Where are you?
Where?