It's been brought to my attention I might have an art fetish
It has something to do with translation- to find ways to communicate the sensational reality of experiences into something tangible. photographs and writing are performing the same function. one with light and one with words, to communicate - not how something looks - but how it feels.
I've been hovering around this idea with film for a really long time, trying to integrate my aesthetic with pornography more completely. There is this place that I think exists where I can extend the hyper, narrow focus of detail and texture, and the isolated, minimal subject matter and narrative in my photos into something more illicit, to elicit more direct physical responses. What I'm finding is I really love this uncomfortable space between honest pornography, with a slow pace in the same kind of texture and composition I use in my photos to communicate tension or pleasure or touch...
I like the idea of this slow slow pacing in video, this fixed view and hard cuts, because I like the idea of minimal motion for focus. But, also because I like sitting on edge of the discomfort that can come from watching something intimate or personal. It's taken me a while to feel like this is a realistic thing I can accomplish - arousal and awareness - holding one with out crushing too much of the other. I have been edging pretty close to an end result that is doing what I want at least a little.
Such a slender idea, the fulfilling of artistic and sexual fantasy or inspiration through gentle manipulation of biology? I don't know, but this video is the first time I think I've actually come close to achieving this kind of visual experience I want that is also is what I would consider "real" porn.
Nylon 1 is the first of 3 nylon fetish focused videos. or maybe 5, I don't know, I haven't made them yet but I do have a lot of nylons...